what the fuck...

when did people become so mean? tonight, at dinner, people were so mean... James was ragging on women in general and telling Meagan she had to vacuum his room for tossing paper at Kevin last night... apparently he forgot that she drove him up to Medford at 5 am when he needed a ride last month. asshole

then when we were walking back to Meagan's room after dinner, some chick walked through the door ahead of us and didn't hold the door open. just as a common courtesy! wench.

i'm not sure if it's just that i was raised to be polite to other people, or if the world has gotten rotten with the weather, but man, what is going on?!

today was tiring, even though i slept a good 6 hours last night, and another 2 between classes... i've got more homework that i don't want to do, and tonight i don't have any Reese's to bribe myself with... and Crim test tomorrow that's worth 50% of my grade. Spanish test that's a big one too. Meeting with head of honors CORE to create my "Death with Dignity" (as i'm beginning to refer to the impending end of my honors CORE career) program. then i go back to my room and study like a crazy kid for the stats midterm i'll be taking on friday.

by the time i go home friday night, i'll probably collapse in the doorway. my mother will have to drag me in. Anya will probably laugh at me, this limp blob of white skin, black sweatshirt, and red hair being towed by our little russian mom. i'd laugh.

i am making no sense, and my apologies. i was doing better earlier today. like right after my nap. then i went to Stats, and magically, my energy was sapped by Professor Assprobe. oops, sorry, Buttcane. how i despise that sad, sad little man.

i'm definitely procrastinating on this homework that i need to do... mmm.... a nap sounds good. i could always go bug kyle... nah, he's probably busy. i don't want to fuck my sleep schedule up by sleeping right now, but if i were to go to sleep for the night right now, i might almost feel alive tomorrow in time to take a spanish test that i wouldn't've studied for... that doesn't sound so good. Preterito, Imperfecto, sustantivos, vocab... é, aste, ó, amos, aron... í, iste, ió, imos, ieron... aba, abas, aba, ábamos, aban... ía, ías, ía, íamos, ían... i won't list out the vocab funness, no worries.

ok, i'm going to go beat this shit into my brain... cheers!

i'd like to see my darling boy this evening, but he's busy... as am i... well, i suppose the sleep-over last night was enough fun to tide me along... not really